Tuesday, May 12, 2009
So it begins.
Today I went and got a cane. You do not know how hard it has been for me to face the reality that I need it. When I was at Duke yesterday I tried one out with the physical therapist. It made a big difference. When I use the cane, I don't waddle nearly as much and I think I may walk a bit straighter too. I also feel more secure and dont feel as off balance. Now I just need to get over the fear of public reaction and actually use it. I know that it has come to the point where I need to use it, but my pride is keeping me from just doing it. It is tough. I am 29 yrs old, I shouldn't need a cane.
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love ya Rach, i really think you'll help yourself and othrs with your blog. Thanks for being so brave!
ReplyDeleteDad and I are so proud of you!
ReplyDeleteI have told you before and I will tell you again that I think your are wonderful. Strong, brave to face your disease head-on and to continue as you do day to day with your head held high - giving everything you've got to your beautiful little girl. I think you are amazing - really an inspiration....that's all I wanted to say.
ReplyDeleteI really can't say that I know what you are going through, but I'll tell you that people are going to have more compassion for a young woman with a cane. I know this because in March of 2005 I started having some medical problems, and they could not find out what was wrong with me. After 2 heart caths, and back and forth between a cardiologist and pulmnologist the only thing they could find was that my o2 sats were dropping too low too fast. At the age of 26 I was put on oxygen. Only old people need oxygen, and me, 26 year old with an 8yr old and 2yr old. It was embarrassing at first to go out in public, but if that is what I needed, then that's how it had to be. Then in June of 2007 I got pregnant, still had to go around with my oxygen. The looks I got, sometimes were discouraging, but most people would be very kind to me. Don't let what other people might think bother you. If the cane is going to help you, use it! I even had one lady approach me in Costco one day and pray for me. Not everyone knows what you are going through and why you have a cane, but it's not there place to judge what your circumstance is.
ReplyDeleteI love you, Rachel. You are an inspiration to me although I'm sure you don't know it. you are my best friend and I'm so glad you are doing this.
ReplyDeleteI think you are awesome and truly inspiring.
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